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Good Things Come In Small PackagesDon't Miss Them.... June 25 Someone Special...
I wish I could find the exact words to express my feelings…I am making a lame effort to do justice to my feelings as much as I can…this piece f writing is about someone very special someone very close someone I………
A- adore
B- believe
C- cherish
D- depend on
E- envy
F- feel for, fight wid
G- go crazy abt
H- hold onto to
I- get Inspired by
J- jealous of
K- know
L- love d most
M- mesmerized by, miss every sec
N- naughty wid
O- obsessed abt
P- pray for
Q- question 1000 times daily
R- relax wid,
S- find Support in
T- tolerate day n night
U- understand
V- find versatile
W- think is my World
X- xxxx
Y- yyyyyy
Z- zzzzzzz
I wish there were more alphabets in the english language,coz they don't form enough words to express my feelings for him...continuing....
Someone who I don’t know exactly is what for me…someone who has stirred so many colours in my life…someone who has struck so many chords f my heart tht my dil goes hmmmmmm…all d time…!!! Someone whose hand I want to hold and walk for the rest of my life…whose every step I want to match with mine…whose words are the bottomline of every discussion…n not coz he is dominating or pressurizing jus coz I like it tht way…who makes me want to re-live all the 19 yrs of my life wich were spent widout him…actually as he says…we have always been connected…we have not led separated lives…humari duniya ek hi thi, woh alag nahi thi (our worlds were one, they were not different)… someone i try and write about but somehow i never get the words...someone whom i try and be angry on but fail miserably...someone who means much more than life to me..."U NEVER REALLY LIVE UNTIL YOU FIND SUMONE TO DIE FOR YOU AND YOU NEVER REALLY DIE UNTIL YOU FIND SUMONE TO LIVE FOR YOU"...n i m glad i have found "d one" who cud do anythg for me...who i cud do anythg for...pyar aisa hota...this is love...actually much more than just love...love is feeling of bliss but for us love seems a feeble word to describe wat v feel for each other...its a feeling of completeness...a feeling of togetherness...a feeling of being two bodies n one soul...two minds n one thought...itsssssssss much more than all of this tooo...gosh!! i'm at a loss of words again.....................................................................................................................
the first thg ppl ask wen u r into a relationship is 'wat u like abt him','wat u dont',gud qualities,bad ones...etc etc...n i dont have answers to any one of these...trust me, i dont know...n i dont wanna know...all i know is that i feel on top of this world with him...n i know thgs will remain the same way down the line...i feel like a princess...coz he makes me feel tht way...n i love it, i love him...i dont wana waste my time judging him rather than loving him...(to b continued) July 15 MAD....
Hieeeeeee fellow-spaciers....and b4 i forget SORRYYY to all the people who have been religiously logging onto my space to read a new blog of mine and have always returned disappointed(esp.Rhea,Aniruddh,Mandy,Divoo n Pratik)...sorry u guys!!
Well here I am back again on this easy chair of mine…wondering why on earth is it called an ‘easy’ chair when all its giving me is a terrible back ache but I am still…no prizes for guessing it right, sitting on it for the past 4-5 hrs…realizing the pain, feeling it, bearing it and growing to like it in the end!! Kind of strange I know…but hey true…and on deeper thoughts, quite predictable, coz nothing in this whole wide world comes easy…trust me NOTHING…so is the case with this so called ‘easy chair’!! Now you must be thinking why on earth is a silly petty easy chair making me go so philosophical that’s coz in the past few months (that I have been away) I have learnt a few well deserved lessons…n life is seeming a bit different, its seeming to have more facets than I ever thought it could actually have, its seeming too colourful all of a sudden…colourfully vague and vaguely colourful…ha ha ha…it feels as if the colours are there but are slowly fading away…I am losing them all one by one how and why I don’t myself know…² but my dreams, they aren’t empty…as my conscience seems to be”…but my conscience is not dead I can assure you that…its just gone NUMB for a while…sometimes the pain is so much that you actually don’t feel it at all…my emotions are playing the same game with me…my feelings are so mixed n confused that I fail to emote…there are so many thoughts that I fail to think things rightly anymore…I feel I am losing my sanity…well question is was I ever sane??…maybe yes maybe no…mostly no, I guess!!! Coz turning insane is not an easy job mind u…seriously thinking about it we use this phrase ‘are you mad?’ “are you insane?”(atleast I do) thousand times a day without actually realizing what we are actually meaning…who do u actually call a mad person??good question...i know...sumone way out of the ordinary...but according to me in todays world isn't everythg n everyone weird in their own specific ways...so conclusion drawn is tht EVERYONE IS MAD...i dont know how many of u are cursing me under ur breath for callin u mad,not having the least idea of who or what u r..but leaving tht aside i believ some of u r already questionin urself....already ur mind is on a voyage....as to what is the answer of this peculiarly weird question...r only those ppl who roam around on the streets with bare minimum clothes talking excitedly to none but themselves fit to be termed as MAD....are we ppl who work round the clock relentlessly not knowing at the end of the day what we want MAD....aren't the parents who involve their children into so many activities of their own liking snatching away their glorious childhood freedom days MAD...aren't the brothers who kill their own blood for somethg as petty as money n property MAD....they all are...we all are...one but only MAD!!!
dis is kool....!!!!
Hi, February 25 ....RED and FORBIDDEN.
A naked red building And walls high…stands Amidst the not so barren lands Dark and dingy roads Lights flickering, on and off it goes From high to higher and then the highest The walls extend till nothing can be seen Except the merge with the destiny queen! And beyond these barriers we can’t see or feel The lives led so differently, or maybe not so Maybe tiringly routined and disciplined Or painfully regular and boring without Known paths and territories and doubts All a mere vague illusion now Thirsty eyes seek a mirage…but how? Days numbered yet endless it seems With little hope or sunshine beams Painfully weary eyes stare at the forbidden gates Asking for a chance, a new beginning-new fate!
Busy streets with carelessly walking crowd And on the other side the forlorn forgotten few Some guilty, some blamed and some trapped In cases of murder, rape and kidnap Ending are their lives, as their spirit dies Long before they are sentenced… Millions pass by with disgusted faces And in some others adrenaline paces!
Greater crimes are committed everyday So why not put us in too, and make us pay Why just let them decay??
(For the ones who read through the poem without understanding a word or rather its the theme-This is a poem about A JAIL. Wondering why such a weird and unusual theme well it just happened so that one fine day I was crossing this particular jail while I was in the bus returning home. As I looked around I saw the most disgustingly revolting sight of my life- a group of so-called educated men were sneering, mocking, teasing and almost beating a poor guy who had just come out of the jail as if he weren’t human at all, as if he is a piece of filth…not even bothering to know what his crime was or was he guilty at all?? He looked quite like honesty is the best policy kinda guy to me…why this hatred? why this scornful attitude? just cause someone has been to jail, has he lost the right to live to breathe free again??? Is it so?? January 05 In The End...I am happy
why cant you see it?
I am happy
why cant you feel it?
It's not tears you see
u are mistaken, my friend
It's not sadness in my eyes
Thats where your problem lies...
I am laughing
why cant you hear it?
I am laughing
why cant you bear it?
why do you give me that stare?
pretending you care
thank you so very much
I do not need your touch...
Everything is perfect
the smile is on and
the look is bright
like flowers freshly picked
picked or pricked,my friend
look where your fingers hold
your brown eyes are cold
Is everything alright?she asked
who?Is someone talking to me?
Fine,is what I am and shall be
To you and everybody
Nobody knows it but I
The secret that lies deep within
this stone heart of mine
no one shall come to know
When and how my head I bow...!!!
December 30 I AM BACK...!A belated but
*MERRY *~~~*CHRISTMAS*
to all of you...and a very
*HAPPY*~*NEW*~*YEAR*
ahead....wishin you lots
of happiness n prosperity
as this year ushers in...
P.N-will be back soon wid more updates...till
then keep rocking !!!
September 23 Slow PoisonSLOW POISON...
My days are numbered
My breaths are a counted few
But thou fears not
the slow poison killing me through...
My hopes are shattered
My dreams a broken-winged bird
But thou fears not
the slow poison killing me through...
My faiths damned
My strengths weakened to ashes
But thou fears not
the slow poison killing me through...
My prayers hushed
My truths buried deep down the debris
But thou fears not
the slow poison killing me through...
My love is pure
My heart an unbounded soul
But thou understands not
Why you gave this poison to me... September 14 My Favourite things....
r u ppl...anyone of u feeling sad lonely depressed etc etc...then READ BELOW....
Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens Brown paper packages tied up with strings These are a few of my favourite things
Cream-colored ponies n crisp apples strudels Doorbells n slay bells and schnitzels with noodles Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings These are a few of my favourite things
Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes Silver white winters that melt into springs These are a few of my favourite things
When the dog bites When the bees sting When I m feeling sad I simply remember my favourite things And then I dont feel so baddd…
This is what i read and think about when i am exxxxtremelyyy sad or frustrated wid sth...n trust me it does help me change my mood to some extent....seriously guys try this out...but dont bash me up if it doesnt work on u....two things needed fr this to work -- 1. Powerful imagination
2. Sweet kiddish tone of voice( atleast pretend) to sing the lines
ENJOY....!!!! Back Again...SORRY...evrybody fr not being able to write fr so so so so long...bt i promise not to vanish again...i will try my best to write a new blog evry sat or sun...i promise i promise..actually i have been Busy wid nothing else but College n college n more college...phew ! but seriously ppl college is Fun...atleast my college is great fun...but therez a hell lotta study-pressure too..n thts da reason why i ws outta touch fr a while...man, our college professors keep us on our toes,dancing to the beats of their muzik...bt all da same we have a blast everyday...we have our share of laughter as well...but i still miss skool a lot yaar(hope u agree wid me rhea) i really do...miss my skool gang n teachers n pranks n masti...okii i m goin nostalgic now i better stop!!
oki ppl this is sth i never thought i wud write but here i go...Real World…yes the real world is a strange strange place to live in…yes my dear friends very strange!! ….aha! I can hear some groaning and some exclamations….natural enough…few minutes back even I thought there existed just one world, one world of which I knew so well…but I was wrong…very WRONG…there indeed exists like other people say 2 very very distinct worlds…worlds wide apart from each other…and till a certain age we are happily-joyfully-unknowingly a part of one…we remain consciously or unconsciously unaware of that other world…well in my case I was warned about it but obviously the stone-stubborn me refrained to believe this ‘real world’ thing…but experiences instances change your views, change your opinions….n it did change mine too…believe me!! Life as it was carefree-tensionless is now no more there seems to be some kinda worry some kinda little or big thing always creating a nagging pain at the back of our heads...though there are times when we are 'happy' but those times are numbered...n being happy is a relative term now...lifez seriously mysteriously dangerous n dangerously mysterious...indeed!! its like a jigsaw puzzle the more u try and solve it the more complicated it becomes(or seems atleast)...the more u try n understand life the more inexplicable it seems...u feel u r going down deeper down n further down a tunnel...fathomless...u struggle to find n reach the light at the end of the dark tunnel but all u get is darkness n defeat...y is it so??....y is it so???y....y.....y....just a big "Y".... July 24 Tell Mommy I love her...Rohit woke up with the familiar alarming noise of the alarm clock.He shifted lazily on his bed,twisted and turned and tried sleeping again....but he couldn't.So he walked with his half-open,sleepy,droopy eyes into the bathroom and splashed the ice-cold water on his face....he was definitely up now...one splash of that water was enough.He took a bath and got ready for office. It was the usual,normal,non-reactive beginning of his day...it had been so for the past few weeks.He had been on a business tour to Ohio and he couldn't wait to get home.His mother's birthday was coming up and he usually tried to make it back home but this year it just seemed impossible. He was on his way to his office when he noticed Little Heaven,the best flower shop in town,his eyes sparkled with excitement...he knew exactly what to do now.He would send mom a beautiful bunch of roses for her b'day.He remembered how happily his mother had hugged him when he had given her that lovely pearl necklace and a single rose...this time it was a bunch...he could imagine and feel her warm hug already.He stopped his car in front of the shop. Inside the shop he found Mr.Smith,the owner,engaged in a trifle quarrel with a small boy. "How many roses can i get for six dollars,sir?" asked the boy. "Roses are too expensive,my son,you could get some carnations instead" explained Mr.Smith. "NO! I have to have roses," the boy said indignantly."My mom was sick last year and i didn't get to spend much time with her.I want to get her something special this year and it has to be red roses,cause they are her favourite."He was emphatic. Mr.Smith saw Rohit and gestured him to wait.He was about to shake his head when something inside Rohit was touched by the little boy's sweet painful voice,he wanted the roses so badly.Rohit felt his heart speaking for the first time....it said 'Go'...'Go and Do it'.He silently motioned Mr.Smith to give the boy the roses. "Okay,i will give you a dozen roses for your six dollars" Mr.Smith said. The boy almost jumped into the air with glee.He took the flowers and rushed out of the store.His happiness was worth the extra thirty-five dollars Rohit spent.Rohit ordered his own flowers and instructed Mr.Smith to attach a note saying 'HAPPY B'DAY,MOM....Sorry couldn't be there....'. As he drove away from the shop,feeling good about himself,he was caught at the signal.He waited,drumming a happy tune on the car wheel with his fingers,when he glanced the other side he saw the same little boy walking down the sidewalk.Rohit's eyes watched him,he didn't know why he was doing that,after all it was none of his business.He didn't even know the boy or his name.But he continued watching,the boy crossed the street and walked round the bend.Rohit was curious.The lights changed,and he crossed the road and pulled over.He got down on an impulse,he didn't know why though and followed the boy round the bend.He was some thirty-forty steps behind the boy,he said to himself "Sherlock Holmes in action" and chuckled to himself. Lost in his action-packed drama which he was visualising,he hardly noticed where he was going untill he suddenly saw the boy kneel down.It was then he realised he was in no park(which he thought he was in) he was standing on the forlorn-forbidden grounds of the cemetery.The boy carefully placed the fresh roses on the grave and began to sob.Rohit felt like an intruder but his legs wouldn't move.He stared at the boy,the roses,the grave....and listened motionless to the muted cry.The cry was piercing his skin...his heart! As he stood there,he heard the boy say "Mommy,oh mommy,why didn't i tell you how much i love you.Why didn't i tell you one last time?Jesus,please find mommy and Tell My Mommy I Love Her" Rohit turned,tears in his eyes,he walked back to his car.He drove quickly to the florist and told him that he would take the flowers personally.He wanted to let his mother know,that he loved her very much.He didn't want to miss it.
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